second chances

have you ever been in a rebound relationship?

i think i have... and i think its not much different than a non-rebound one... not if you fall in love for real.

it starts off innocuously enough. you find someone that eases the pain of your recent break-up, or gives you excitement in an otherwise stale romance. you tell secrets that you wouldn't dream of sharing with your other friends. you honestly and truthfully confide your fantasies, failures, pain, and grandest hopes. you tell each other its nice to have someone who doesn't make demands, who doesn't judge... who only gives. and then, you find that you spend more and more time together, share ever more intimate moments... until one day, the lines are blurred between just being friends and, somehow, being lovers.


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couple days ago i watched My Sassy Girl. it's a nice romantic comedy with a very interesting question: is it right to manipulate other people just to make you feel better? and what happens when the other person believes the make-believe scenarios and thinks its real? what happens when you both fall in love with each other, thinking all the while that what you had was real? when the lines are blurred by love, is it alright to go on pretending?

the movie had a happy ending... and somehow, for all its romanticism, i hope, i pray, that someday i'd find that same ending... no matter how it may have started.

i just wish that somehow, honesty and truth will find its way to love.


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i had my chance at being consoled and affirmed... now i want to find someone i can offer that same unconditional regard... to give healing and comfort when things somehow seems too complicated...

someone i can tell: "it matters to me. i want to know your past so i may heal what may need healing and share the pain of those i can't."


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life is simple. it need not be complicated.

how i wish i can have that some day...